I read those words over at I Saw You Dancing a few days ago and it resonated after an unusual morning. After the year just past I'm not sure how my essence is. I will never feel sure about it again as I felt so well and busy and alive when I got the diagnosis in March yet, it seems, my essence was very out of whack.
This morning I spent time at a place where I will be working next year. I had hoped to return to work slowly but this opportunity just fell softly into my lap. It is a little more than I had hoped for in hours but simply perfect in what I will be doing there.
These things do just appear sometimes and are just so right that logic cannot be allowed to interfere. Each of the four people at the job, including two I had never met before, have a connection to me in some way through a friend, a family member or a work colleague in the past. This unfolded today as we spoke. It made me feel very comfortable there and more at peace with my decision to take the job on.
It did feel like the universe was reassuring me. My essence is still fragile but is a little more at ease after the last hours knowing that on returning to work I will be amongst like minded individuals and in a creative environment that I savour. Now I just have to get a bit stronger over the summer break. This is difficult when it is so ridiculously hot but I hope to just rest up and recover and feel more like myself, whoever that is now.
On the way home, I found watermelons being sold at 9 cents a kilogram again. That's 39 cents for a whole watermelon. I bought four more. Then we had cold Tim Tams. We don't normally buy Tim Tams but the rules of engagement have changed. Life is looking up. I just have to keep looking straight ahead and keep moving forward and not wobble on the tight rope. When you think about it all too much is sometimes when you fall. Just keep going, breathing, going easy on my essence and letting this new fresh current take me to the next place.
"I am who I am becoming, not who I have been"....I just read this quote on another blog...and it really seemed to hit home with me ...although not anywhere near what your soul has been through this year, I too have had a year that I have come out of the end different, and that quote above says, you know thats okay........we are always changing...x Your job news sounds wonderful, the universe bringing you a new path to follow, enjoy those watermelons again..!
ReplyDeleteThose are canny words, my friend! Maybe we need life's shocks to remind us that we are evolving all the time.
DeleteHope your year has changed life in a good way for you.
YOU DON'T BUY TIM TAMS!!! I'm shocked to my very core. Besides that oversight I'm so glad things are working out job wise and essence wise. Got that tree drug up yet?
ReplyDeletexo
I have not been blessed with a sweet tooth but they do have there place and my taste buds have changed this year.
DeleteThere is evidence of tree emerging. It ha been located but has not yet entered the building.
Oh wow Annie, what a wonderful and positive post. High Ho, High Ho, it's off to work we go! (or something like that)
ReplyDeleteNow tell me: what on earth are tim tams??? ;-)
I'm sure Deb would tell you as I believe she has been exposed to the seductive wiles of the Tim Tam by MMMC.
DeleteThey are an iconic Australian biscuit, crunchy chocolate biscuit layers between layers of chocolate and choc coating.
They now come in dark varieties as well as milk chocolate.
There should be support groups for those with Tim Tam dependencies.
I'm glad the right job has found you, I'm sure things will work out. Love your header! :)
ReplyDeleteWe'll see. Nothing scares me much now.mits all just an adventure there're for the experience I figure!
DeleteOf course you'd love that header!
Great that you've found a job that fits perfectly. "Just keep swimming". I often feel the same. One foot in from the other. Eyes ahead. It's all u can do sometimes. You've had an almighty year and I love the honesty and humour in which u share it with us.
ReplyDeleteTim Tams, cheap watermelon and a new job. Life's sweet.
ReplyDeleteWatermelons and Tim Tams - the perfect essence!
ReplyDeleteYour new job sounds perfect for you.
ReplyDeleteBe kind to yourself.
Hi Annie Just found your blog and enjoying your musings, keep writing!
ReplyDeleteIt must be difficult to trust in fate after all you've gone through this year, but your positivity is a beacon to us all. I think fate is on your side after all.
ReplyDeleteYep, you'll be right! And you'll be you. That's always great fun! And I think our house eats enough Tim Tams to balance out the universe for the ones you don't eat...
ReplyDeleteI've just posted some melted Tim Tams to Deb. I'll tell her they came from you. Congrats on the job front. Don't get too exhausted though. Sounds like they'll be nice to you.
ReplyDeleteIsn't it nice when opportunities just appear. Your new workplace sounds like a good one for getting back into things.
ReplyDeleteIts like you read my mind! You appear to know so much about this, like you wrote the e-book in it or something.
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